Well, I know that I have talked about it a bit, here and there. And that there are many of you who know me in real life, but are 8 hours away from me. I can't just sit down and talk with many of you like I used to. So, I want to tell you why I am choosing to homeschool! Here you go...
I remember within a few weeks of having EJ, someone said to me, "What do you think you will do for schooling, when it is time?" Oh good grief, I had just had baby, who was seriously ill, went through NICU, a c-section, my husband laid off, and a host of other issues. The thought of how I planned on educating my newborn son five years from now was the furthest thing from my mind at that time.
So, I answered it this way... "Who knows. But I can tell you this, I don't want to send him to public school. I pray that the Lord will give us the finances to send him to a private christian school. And the Lord would have to totally change me to EVER consider homeschooling!!"
Why, oh why, did I ever say that last sentence? It was as if I was challenging Almighty God, Himself, to change me and make me do something that I was seriously afraid of!
As time went on, I found that I was not a good "play mom." You know what I am talking about? The kind of mom who gets right down on the floor and plays and pretends and makes cars fly off of ramps, scrambled eggs in the pretend stove, and dresses up. Yea, it wasn't quite working for me.
I found I was quite the goal oriented kind of girl, even as a mom. I LOVED sitting down with my son and teaching him his ABC's and 123's. And fortunately for me, my son LOVED learning about them. And so, our play time as mother and son, was more teaching time. He never knew the difference!
Slowly, I started thinking that I may be cut out for this whole homeschooling thing after all. So, I went against the grain (particularly with my family) and I opted not to put him in preschool. I mean, he's never had a problem with socializing (EJ - can talk anyone's ear off, trust me!!). And all the kids in church and in the neighborhood loved playing with him. Plus, I wanted to be with him. I wanted to have him home. I wanted to be the one who was seeing him grow. And well, honestly, I wasn't so sure I could trust someone else to do the job.
Listen, a 4 year old is not learning algebra or trigonometry. ABC's, 123's, colors, shapes... I can handle that. And so I did. I taught him all the preschool things, without a curriculum, just on my own. He loved it. He still loves it.
Well, it became time to make a decision on kindergarten. I prayed. CJ prayed. And then I prayed again. "God, what do you want us to do for EJ's schooling?"
Quietly, I felt the nudge to keep him home. And thankfully, I felt the Lord encourage me to revisit him yearly with the decision.
Up next, insecurities, choosing a curriculum, and are you sure, God, you want me to do this???