My fast ended this past Tuesday. And with great excitement I turned on my computer pulled up my blog and began to read. I read all the comments first and was about to go onto reading other blogs. I got stopped at a comment and never really returned.
I have been debating about what to write these days. At first I had a lot on my mind and was eager to get it out on paper. But then I realized that this blog has become a place that people who know me closely read on a regular basis. And judgement has come because of what I have written.
I chose to journal online, revealing my heart to many people because I thought that people could learn a little about me, just as I have learned much about others. I have not arrived and know all. I am not closer to "the Man Upstairs" then any of the rest of you. I am just me, who enjoyed writing and occasionally hoped that someone else was getting something out of this.
However, I learned a big lesson. Be VERY careful what you write and only write about what you know for a fact. Otherwise, you open yourself up to hurt and judgement from others.
ALL of my posts have been about me learning. That is it.
So, my break is extended. I just can't write about fluff stuff. And to be honest, I need to either come to a place of not caring so much about other peoples opinions or not caring so much about what I write.
I realize that 95% of you have no idea what I am talking about. So, forgive me.
I'll be around.
Posted in: on Friday, February 02, 2007 at at 4:10 PM